AliffitriRazali

 Airmataku yang lena menjadi amjad pada kaki jubah, sejadah dan hujung malam tiada apa yang membezakan diriku dari kalian wahai Darwis; kalian juga sepertiku menunggu cinta dikaki langit dengan penganiaan jiwa bukan? Usah tinggalkan aku dalam derita disini. Kemari kalian kita berbagi-bagi derita dan mati dalam pengabdian menunggu: dan disini aku hidup bersama mereka tetapi aku tidak pernah putus menunggu mu --- walau jauh dalam lubuk hatiku, aku tahu, bulan tak pernah berkata ya kepadaku. -AliffitriRazali-

kenapa?

secara theory aku bukan nk menyakal kata2 awak kerana menyamakan saya dgn kawan2 saya. sy tak pernah halang awk berkawan dgn siapa? even lelaki atau perempuan, sy ada pendirian saya sendiri. tersentak bila terlihat gambar tu, mcm mana boleh terjumpa pun tak tahu, terbukti semua sangkaan sy benar. sikap was2 tu jadi nyata. depan mata. motiff amik gambar berdua dgn seorang yang pernah rosakan relationship kita. sy tak pernah halang awk berbual dgn dia? sikit pn tak pernah sebab sy tahu and faham keadaan awk oleh kerana dia seorang rakan sekelas mmg tak boleh elak. jadi ape motif gambar tu? kalau awk samakan that guy dgn kwn2 sy jauh sekali, even sy kawan lebih 2tahun dgn mereka sy tak pernah amik gambar berdua sperti ape yang awk buat sekarang. pernah awk nampak gambar sy mcm tu? sy tahu nk jaga hati awk sebb if awk nmpak sy bergambar mcm tu awk akan marah sedih semua.. bukan membezakan cuma, tengok ap awak buat kat saya? sikit pn takde rasa bersalahkan?
sikit pn awak tak hormat yang kita ni masih ada belum pergi lagi.

cara awk jwb semalam tak ubah seperti awak cuba membalas dendam atas sebab awk tak puas hati dgn perkara yang berlaku. 
lebih kepada backup org yang pernah tak hormat kita suatu masa dulu.

sekali lagi kita nk ckp kita mmg xhalang awk berkawan dgn that guy cuma cara awk tu. xperlu nk bergambar mcm tu, tau kan klaw kita nampak ape kita akan fikir? awk x fikir semua tu ap yang awk fikir alaaa aliff bole keluar dgn kwn2 dia xkn aku xboleh. fikirlah jauh bezanya syg.

tapi semalam awk nak semua tu kan?
awk ambil lah… rapat lah dgn dia semua mcm dulu tu.. 
ambilah gambar sama2, 
im okay and im sorry atas semuanya. 

and

goodluck for your finalexam in this sem.
focus!! i know u can do it coz as long i with you
i can see yr improvement. all the best.

bye.
AliffitriRazali~
away.

uncomfortablesoul: when you feel like you can’t go on. I’m sorry that you’re hurting so desperately right now. I know how painful the seconds, and minutes, and days can be, how long the nights are. I understand how very hard hanging on is, and how much courage it takes. I ask though that you hold onto one day at a time. Just one day, and slowly this despair will pass. The feelings you fear you’re trapped in will serve their purpose, and then fade away. Difficult to imagine isn’t it? Almost impossible to believe when every cell in your body it seems cries out in agony, desperately in need of comfort. When it feels like the only thing in the whole world that can touch your pain and banish it is beyond your grasp. And after all this time, the assurance that you will heal has become an empty, broken promise. Hold on because it’s worth the terrible waiting. Hold on because you are worthy. Hold on because the wisdom that will follow you out of this darkness will be a tremendous gift. Hold on because you have so much love and joy waiting to be experienced. Hold on because life is precious, even though it can bring terrible losses. Hold on because there is so much that you can’t now imagine waiting ahead on your journey - a destiny that only you can fulfill. Hold on although your exhausted and your grasp is shaky, and you want more than anything to let go sometimes, hold on even though. Please hold on. And the light, the light at the end of the dark tunnel for so long cannot be seen, although eventually you’ll begin to feel its’ warmth as you move forward. And forward you must move in order to get through the hell of remembering, of despair, of rage, of grief. Keep looking forward please. Rest if you must, doubt your ability to survive the journey if you have to, but never let go of the guide ropes, although when you close your fingers around them, your hands feel empty, they are there. Please trust me, they are there. When you’re exhausted, when all you have to count on is a weakened, weary faith, hold on. When you think you want to die, hold on until you recognize that it’s not death you seek, but for the pain to go away. Hold on, because this darkness will surely fade away. Hold on. Please hold on. - Tammie Byram Fowles, LISW, Ph.D dont give up, just hope.

uncomfortablesoul:

when you feel like you can’t go on.

I’m sorry that you’re hurting so desperately right now. I know how painful the seconds, and minutes, and days can be, how long the nights are. I understand how very hard hanging on is, and how much courage it takes.

I ask though that you hold onto one day at a time. Just one day, and slowly this despair will pass. The feelings you fear you’re trapped in will serve their purpose, and then fade away. Difficult to imagine isn’t it? Almost impossible to believe when every cell in your body it seems cries out in agony, desperately in need of comfort. When it feels like the only thing in the whole world that can touch your pain and banish it is beyond your grasp. And after all this time, the assurance that you will heal has become an empty, broken promise.

Hold on because it’s worth the terrible waiting. Hold on because you are worthy. Hold on because the wisdom that will follow you out of this darkness will be a tremendous gift. Hold on because you have so much love and joy waiting to be experienced. Hold on because life is precious, even though it can bring terrible losses. Hold on because there is so much that you can’t now imagine waiting ahead on your journey - a destiny that only you can fulfill. Hold on although your exhausted and your grasp is shaky, and you want more than anything to let go sometimes, hold on even though. Please hold on.

And the light, the light at the end of the dark tunnel for so long cannot be seen, although eventually you’ll begin to feel its’ warmth as you move forward. And forward you must move in order to get through the hell of remembering, of despair, of rage, of grief. Keep looking forward please. Rest if you must, doubt your ability to survive the journey if you have to, but never let go of the guide ropes, although when you close your fingers around them, your hands feel empty, they are there. Please trust me, they are there.

When you’re exhausted, when all you have to count on is a weakened, weary faith, hold on. When you think you want to die, hold on until you recognize that it’s not death you seek, but for the pain to go away. Hold on, because this darkness will surely fade away. Hold on. Please hold on. - Tammie Byram Fowles, LISW, Ph.D

dont give up, just hope.